Before I Die

A distant friend was recently lost in a drowning accident beneath a large waterfall. It was shocking and devastating for everyone involved. At just 23 years of age, handsome, and ready for living a long life, Isaac’s life was taken from him. At first I questioned God, like I questioned Him last year, when another friend’s father died completely unexpectedly just 2 weeks before her wedding. In times like this we all ask God why, and seek for answers, but the only real answer I’ve found is that God knows what’s best and we don’t. I have no idea if I’m guaranteed tomorrow, but I know that I want to live my life today as if I’m not going to live tomorrow. 

Thinking about death gives me a bigger passion and urgency to live life to the fullest for God’s glory. To share the gospel with that stranger, and not worry about how I’ll be viewed. To do what’s on my todo list, and not get distracted by things that won’t make a difference when I’m gone. To love my family unconditionally, and not let little things get in the way of our relationships. To give more for the glory of God each day, and to really think only about what He thinks of me. And to be willing to sacrifice and take some risks for the sake of life, and for the sake of love. To show others how much I love them, and not to hold back until I feel their love First. 

These are the things I hope to do before I die. It’s not as much a list of places I want to see, or things I want to do, but more so the person I want to live out each day, so that I could die at anytime with no regrets, and leaving no one wondering if I loved them. My mindset needs to change so that I can focus on who I am in Christ and what He has done for me, and live each moment from that perspective. I want to be able to be completely guided by the Holy Spirit, and to do whatever God calls me to do without hesitation. 

Along with realizing what’s really important before death, I’ve also realized what’s not as important. I don’t have to be super wealthy, educated, or famous before I die. I don’t have to live my life devoted to someone else’s dreams for me. And I don’t have to live with bondage of sin or my own selfish desires. It’s not important to have the best looking body, or the most money in the bank. These things aren’t entirely bad, but they simply aren’t what qualifys a life well lived. 

No! Relationships.... first with Jesus my one true lover, and then my family, close friends, and anyone else God brings into my life. These are the important things. Living the way I would want to be remembered each moment, and thinking of giving more than I take. Being willing to sacrifice for others, and to find joy in the trials of life. These are the things worth living for, and these are the things I want to do before I die. 

“I have set the Lord always before me, because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved. Therefore my heart is glad and my glory rejoiceth. My flesh also shall rest in hope. For thou wilt not leave my soul in hell, neither wilt thou suffer thine Holy One to see corruption. Thou wilt show me the path of life: in thy presence is fullness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.” Psalm 16:8-11