It seemed cool, for everyone to be in a relationship without me. So I took matters into my own hands and… ended up with him. Him, who secretly displayed the characteristics of a cheater, a liar, an abuser, and a thief. So why was I surprised when he broke into my heart? I called 911, but I was cardiac-arrested for aiding and abetting, ’cause I let him in, claiming we were “just friends.”
I had decided that even if he wasn’t, I was gonna make him “the One.” I was tired of being alone, and I made up in my mind, that it was about that time, 'cause I was always the bridesmaid and never the bride. A virgin physically, but mentally just a woman, who was tired of the wait. He had a… form of Godliness, but I was sure I could change that, because he was so close.
Ready to sell my worth for a quarter, not knowing the value it used to be. My heart so clogged with my will, it blocked His will from flowing through me. So, I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack that flatlined my obscured vision, and put me on my knees. Through my ignorance, He saw fit to transplant Psalms 51:10, a new heart & a renewed spirit within me. So now, I fully understand, how much I need to wait for You.
Even possibly never having met me, let me assure you, I will wait for you. I will not date, socialize, or communicate with carbon copies of you to appease my boredom, and quench my thirsty desire for attention. I won’t settle for false companionship or feel the embrace of his arms, attempting to find some closeness. No more ‘just being friends’, passing smiles, & sharing drinks. I don't want to 'flirt' with the ideology of, “Can you just tell me how much I can get away with & still be pure?”
But with you, I know I can't even come close, we can't even touch. 'Cause I have thoughts that I’ve saved in a 'file' that God has only equipped you to open at the right time. I will no longer get weighted down, concerned for time, when I serve the Author of Time. He is not subject to time, but I am subject to Him, and He has the ability to stop, fast-forward, pause, or rewind whenever he sees fit.
I await your revelation, but once again, I will wait for you. And I will know you because when you speak, I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom, your ability to lead will remind me of Moses, your faith... of Abraham, your confidence in God’s Word....of Daniel, your inspiration.... of Paul, your heart for God... of David, your attention to detail..... of Noah, your integrity....of Joseph, and your ability to abandon your own will.... of the disciples. But most importantly, your ability to love selflessly & unconditionally will remind me of Christ.
And you will know me, because you will find me, where the boldness of Esther, meets the warm closeness of Ruth, where the hospitality of Lydia, is aligned with the submission of Mary, which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hannah. And I will be the one, drenched in the water of the Word, waiting for you. But not just waiting, I will be preparing by living a full life of service to Christ.
But all of this only you O Lord should see fit. I desire Your will above mine. So in this time of singleness, help my heart be content. I know You are the greatest love I've ever known. You are forever my king & I’m forever Your princess. Let me always be found on a mission about your business. I will always be Yours, and I will always wait for You. More than the watchmen wait for the morning, help me to say 'I will wait'!
~Janette IKZ edited by Elanee
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